Our deepest fear..

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

--Marianne Williamson, quoted in Akeelah and the Bee

Today i waddled in an ocean of morons...

Went to follow up on my PAN card which was supposed to have come to me 2 months back.. After researching UTI's website, learnt that i was given a wrong coupon number, and UTI cannot search their database with my name and rest of the details (hunh?!)... in the pursuit to find the right coupon number i narrated my story to 10 different morons, reaching them through 20 different numbers.. i spent 4 hours in the Raheja towers - resolving ke 'aaj tho main pan number le ke hee rahoongee', spoke sweetly as well as toughly with faceless smarties whose only answers were "madam try this number" and "we will take 3 working days to find you which phone number to call"...i walked out of Raheja towers giving up on the whole deal... may be i will have to apply again, this time i will get right behind the counter to make sure the right coupon number is being given to me..

Just when I was cooling my paws on Raheja's ground floor.. the next barrage of morons were getting ready to treat me - in Standard Chartered, whose managers deserve to sweep the floors of ICICI in the hope to learn what service is...

Somewhere between the top floor and the ground floor of Raheja towers, i suddenly had my first serious attack of why-the-hell-did-we-leave-US syndrome..

Returned to office to find a center-wide email from the Center head with the subject "Brief Profile." Nothing before, nothing after! I could visualize my composition teacher getting right on top of the monitor and dancing on the email with savage fury... only after reading till the last para of the "brief" 5 para rant, i understood it was profile of some unknown guy leaving and another one replacing him... Flashback to last Center-wide performance meeting - one of our biggest liabilities cited by this very Center-head was Ineffective Communication!

The only thought that fills me with hope is that I may be getting my full quota of morons for the whole 2007 right today... BRING IT ON, mehearties..

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